Things are going well overall. I'm still detoxing from the chemo. Drinking lots of tea and sleeping at very late hours quite a lot. I mean I can't go to sleep until late. Still that will take time to get all of that out of my system.
I'm thinking of getting my hormone levels checked in a month or two. Not too concerned about that.
Of late I have done a shit ton of research on shampoo. I knew most of it was bad for you as so many has detergent in it, thus making it suds up. Not to mention all the other harmful ingredients. After comparing products and reading testimonials on expensive shampoo to inexpensive. I'm going with the least amount of ingredients. There was a higher dollar one with essential oils, and then I decided to go with Aubrey Organics (also oils in it), as new hair is like baby hair and I want to be gentle with it. So, between that, a healthy diet and supplements I think things will be good. I see all these women with short hair and I don't honestly know how they embrace it. They look great, really good, but I suppose I just feel that I love what I'm use too. Whatever my feelings are I will have short hair for awhile. Maybe I think it works for them, but won't for me....
The last few days I have slacked on working out because for the most part I have been so exhausted. Not getting enough sleep hardly makes me want to push myself to work out. And of course it's ironic because now photographers are contacting me. I am concerned that I won't feel super into this until my hair is longer. On the other hand I should just go for it, or switch it up with the wigs. Actually I've been in contact throughout this ordeal, I think I'd feel it if I was in better shape, and again had my own hair. Many women model at the size I am, all different sizes, but I really like to be more toned.
I really am not sure what I will do, but to do it well I have to be rested anyway. I didn't quite think about post treatment, and how the detox from chemo isn't just "Oh it's over, I'm better now.."
I am better no doubt about it, but I surely don't feel like my old self. In time I am sure that I will. I have been sober so this is good. It is also hard at points. It will get easier I know, but even after over two years of being sober, I am near certain that there wasn't a day or many that went by without me thinking about it in some way or another.
And the last thing on my mind related to all of this is I will have to do another scan in awhile. I'm sure I don't have to elaborate on how that makes me feel. Skip that and back to shampoo, it's funny I spent around $50 on a shampoo and conditioner (that was a deal I got as well) and the first ingredient is one of the one's your suppose to watch out for. There are so many high dollar shampoo's like that, granted this kind didn't have tons of ingredients but just the same. I know you have to adapt to different shampoo's but I am choosing to adapt to healthier ones for my hair. I read how I could also make it myself, but I'll skip that, though it wouldn't be hard. So my selections should arrive soon. I won't list the labels of one's people think are awesome but probably suck, though they aren't horrid, horrid.
k.....that's it for now :)