Friday, December 9, 2011
This round has been not so good at all. The day after chemo I was tired, got my shot, and in the middle of the night around 3 a.m. I awoke feeling terrible, and since then have been pretty exhausted. More nausea this time around and definitely more fatigued. Then I think the hormone shifts are getting to me, because not only was I feeling like junk in the middle of the night, but I was crying my head off about all sorts of things, I'm sure a lot of valid feelings, but once I got started crying I had to calm myself. I felt fear around all of this cancer stuff. I am letting myself sleep as much as possible so I can let my body repair. This time, is similar in a way (yet not as bad) as the first chemo treatment. That treatment was no picnic, nor is this.... I don't want to make this a negative dumping ground... but I have to be real. Also I think the nurse said the chemo sort of adds up over time, that is why I'm thinking I feel so shitty now. Tired I can handle, but this bleh feeling has got to go!